A Letter For My Mum...Happy Mother's Day, Mum!

Dear Mum,

I'm sorry because I wrote this letter in English Language..as you know, I'm taking a huge step to keep myself learning something new..exploring new adventures..experiencing new life..

I remembered the day you asked me to make a decision on my own..I was so frustrated as I assumed you didn't want to take care of me anymore..But, as usual I was wrong, you only given me a chance to find what's good in myself..knowing myself better. I totally freaked out when I learned that I can manage to do anything..after all this time, you are the one who keep controlled and guided me on how to manage my life..nevertheless, I really missed you nag...

A few months ago, I was sicked and it was a bad year for me..and of course to you..I could see you were panic and wasn't sure of anything..then, you make a drastic decision..you admitted me in a private hospital..I wasn't okay with that decision but, I really wasn't clear with myself on that time. On my second day in a hospital, I went to see a doctor..and she said something that's really made myself guilty for a whole life.."Every mom will take any action no matter what the cost is.." It showed that I always on the top of your heart..It just that I liked to pretend it wasn't like that :)

Mum,

I know and I always know, you want the best for your children..however, don't neglect that sometimes, when your kids made some decisions it is also for your own good..it just that in our helpless way..we are not blessed with super power to make this world as a better place..we just have a tiny heart with big ambitions and dreams..many people used to say..dreams do come true..it just won't happen immediately..it takes time..therefore, my dear mum..have a little mercy on me..let us pray for the rainbow to show up in our life..be strong with me, be tough with me, be patience with me...don' let yourself drowning in the messy river of life..don't let yourself down..don't let the fear of losing something be part of you..don't let the grievness of this life be your meal of a day..

Mum,

I am strong because you are here...I am tough because you are here...I am keeping my anger in myself because you are here...I am swallowing my own tears because you are here...stay with me, mum..keep on smiling, mum..keep on fighting them, mum..we are not loser..we are the winner in our own victory..we can do it..because we always know ALLAH is with us every seconds, every minutes, every hours and everytime...

Mum,

I wanna wish you a very "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY" and my wish is not only for this day because you know I always say "I LOVE YOU" no doubt about it and you know it is true..and pure..I am apologizing for every single tiny or big mistakes I have done in my life..trust me, I have no intention to make you sad and disappointed with me..I know I have made your heart broken into pieces, I wish I could glued it back but, the scars will always be there..it couldn't be removed for the rest of my life..and I am really sorry for that..my love is always for you..

Sincerely,

Your Daughter...

A gift for you... :)